Please get help

Depression?

I'm down knowledge that runs in my family and I think it would be bipolar disorder. Some days I'm very good and suicide is the last thing on my mind, but the other day (which is very fast, and nowhere), I feel very bad and just bc I want to die there, meaning in life in general. i kno should seek help, but it is they want to improve. I hope so bad, some just go on and do not want to take medication for it. I do not have $ $ to go see a psychiatrist or treatment and care of my mom told me dsnt normal and go through it. BC is crazy now I'm giving. IDC at school or my future and Nemora Nemora not want to deal. plz sumone IDK what to do. Well, by and Wnt does not offend but I do not believe in God and I am not spiritual. I thought my councelor say, but hes an ass dsnt seriously and I really like dsnt Conduct in such situations.

It does not happen to you that makes you depressed? I do not know how it will be useful, but what happened and what I did. First, I lost my father at the age of 7 years. He was bipolar and alcohol. My mother decided to leave one day and tried to kill All of our family. My sister fought me leave the house, but I wanted to stay, but I know he tried to kill me. He ended up losing life or killed my uncle and I tried to do. When he died, my life is over. I became very ill and hated them all. My mother never care about her, and she began to meet people perverse and addicted that I can abuse. Five years later, I changed my relationship with my mother. I wanted to spend time with her one day and was on agreements. It was a great becaue of what they did not spend together. When I came back home to her bf, ruined everything. My mother told me that he can not go with her b / c her boyfriend would not let me go. She and I, an argument broke out and it hit me. I called the face, I said I hated her, and told him that I wanted, that she was dead. I regret that I still have two hours later. She lost consciousness and died of a heart attack in the shop. At the age of twelve, he had no parents. My dysfunctional family, which fought for what we take. My aunt without children and a house "stole" two girls and emotionally messed up. What does not click and I ended up transferring at least 12 times in two years. Ready staying with a cousin who was 41 and raped and beaten by two years! And only 14 at the time and I felt like I was soooooo alone in this world and no one to refer to love and care. Yes, he tried to kill me, a little TME, thank you very much, and God no. I've never been a professional for help with my depressioin. I went to church and Bible reading. At this age, I was barely able to understand what he said, but some things I could. I also wrote a lot. The more you write, the more we a. Although you see the hypocrites that ruin things for people who are truly seeking God, prayer works! A relationship with God is possible obtained through difficult times in life, including hereditary diseases. I have serious may relate to the problem. There were many times that he wants to improve and do things in danger, without actually doing anything. For example, I have trouble sleeping today after being hit by a drunk driver at 95 miles per hour. I have to take drugs to stay awake, especially when driving. Before he went to the doctor, I was not Doz. Deliberately avoids taking a pill, because sometimes I do not want to fight to live longer. I also developed acid reflux really bad and the food is better. I got to the point where not allowed to eat or drink during the day and I could do, no matter how I've tried. I'm worried about my future is at some point. Honey, please stay in school and most of his life, even if you do not see improvement now. Your situation will worsen if he leaves, they become dependent on others. Successful life allows to change the current situation. Please do not give up! There have been many times so I did not feel. In fact, I believe that God put me on earth, so suffer. I know that we believe that the transition for some reason. Even if not by all that is so bad, is bipolar, it always obvious. If we do not this product, please remember to pray and work on their relationship with God. What's more, this may sound weird, but I eat well and eat protein. Diet has a lot to deal with depression too. I'm sorry your mother is not favorable. Need someone to handle for you, and I know first hand that God can and wants to take his place. Many people go depression, such as symptoms, and pass as usually, but not lasting two weeks or longer and reproduce. The world needs you, and remember that. Suicide is very selfish actions and if you believe what the Bible says, you go to hell if they do. Even if you do not believe that they do not like to be sure …. case. Please try again pray to God and writing the feelings down on paper. God loves you and heal the wounds. I will pray for you)

Dr. Sid– Depression Help